In Between, Part 15
Oct. 12th, 2010 08:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
soulmatejunkeeTitle: In Between, Part 15/?
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
soulmatejunkee
Fandom: Queer as Folk US
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Timeline: What happened between episode 4.09 and 4.10 (POV’s). It starts right after "Eat some fucking chicken soup".
Word Count: 500 words (drabbles)
Summary: I am writing on it since weeks, so I just thought, maybe I should start posting it
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. It’s all CowLip and Showtime.
A/N: Beta byqafkinnetic (Thanks a lot!)
Every comment is welcome. Let me know what you think. Thanks!
I just want to thank everyone for the lovely comments on this story!!
I love reading every single one.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10
11 | 12 | 13 | 14
Brian's POV
1)
He didn’t say anything about my condition and the towels on the bathroom floor – which magically disappeared. I wondered where he took them.
I knew he thought I didn’t want to talk about it and he was right. I wouldn’t know what to say, because I didn’t expect it to be as bad as it was, either. But after two days of not talking about it, I got a little nervous. After all, he is still Justin, he loves to discuss everything. And I knew with the next radiation coming up in two days there was stuff to talk about.
2)
He sat at the table and worked on his essay about the baroque vein. We had eaten something and normally we would fuck now, but he didn’t even try to come near me. The doctor said that the radiation wouldn’t have any effect on my sex drive, but the surgery-pain was still there. It had gotten better, but it wasn’t gone.
The other problem was, that I wasn’t even sure I would want to be naked in front of him. Except that I had a perfectly shaped penis right now, it just felt weird to know that he knows. Imperfection.
3)
He kinda ignored me. Not if I asked him something or if I needed something, but otherwise he didn’t come near me. Why did he always have to scare me? Why couldn’t he just tell me that it’s disgusting and that he couldn’t even imagine to ever be with me again? It was obvious.
"Bullshit, Brian“, he mumbled without looking up from his essay.
I realized I was staring at him. I shook my head. "I didn’t say anything.“
"You were thinking.“
I’m convinced I wasn’t thinking loud and that we’re not able to do telepathy. "How do you know?“
4)
"Because you’re always thinking.“ He was still not looking up from his essay. "That wouldn’t be so bad if you just would stop thinking shit like that.“
„How do you know what I was thinking?“
"It’s all over your face.“
"You didn’t even look at me.“
Now he did and raised an eyebrow.
I smiled brightly – all over my face. He just laughed and shook his head.
"You so fail at playing it cool.“
I sighed and sat down beside him. "How’s it going?“
"I’m almost done. I guess it’s a good thing that I’m a born genius, isn’t it?“
5)
"Depends on…“, I sighed and bit my lip.
"Want me to go?“ he asked.
"Do you want to go?“
"Not my question.“
"But my answer.“
Now he sighed and took my hand. "No, I do not want to go. But I thought maybe you want to have some alone time. And the only way for you to get that is between the treatments, because there’s absolutely no chance that I will leave you alone right after the radiation again.“
I nodded. "I figured. So, what happened to my towels?“
He leaned forward. "They’ll be back tomorrow.“
Then he kissed me.
TBC
Author:
soulmatejunkee Fandom: Queer as Folk US
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Timeline: What happened between episode 4.09 and 4.10 (POV’s). It starts right after "Eat some fucking chicken soup".
Word Count: 500 words (drabbles)
Summary: I am writing on it since weeks, so I just thought, maybe I should start posting it
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. It’s all CowLip and Showtime.
A/N: Beta by
qafkinnetic (Thanks a lot!)Every comment is welcome. Let me know what you think. Thanks!
I just want to thank everyone for the lovely comments on this story!!
I love reading every single one.
01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10
11 | 12 | 13 | 14
Brian's POV
1)
He didn’t say anything about my condition and the towels on the bathroom floor – which magically disappeared. I wondered where he took them.
I knew he thought I didn’t want to talk about it and he was right. I wouldn’t know what to say, because I didn’t expect it to be as bad as it was, either. But after two days of not talking about it, I got a little nervous. After all, he is still Justin, he loves to discuss everything. And I knew with the next radiation coming up in two days there was stuff to talk about.
2)
He sat at the table and worked on his essay about the baroque vein. We had eaten something and normally we would fuck now, but he didn’t even try to come near me. The doctor said that the radiation wouldn’t have any effect on my sex drive, but the surgery-pain was still there. It had gotten better, but it wasn’t gone.
The other problem was, that I wasn’t even sure I would want to be naked in front of him. Except that I had a perfectly shaped penis right now, it just felt weird to know that he knows. Imperfection.
3)
He kinda ignored me. Not if I asked him something or if I needed something, but otherwise he didn’t come near me. Why did he always have to scare me? Why couldn’t he just tell me that it’s disgusting and that he couldn’t even imagine to ever be with me again? It was obvious.
"Bullshit, Brian“, he mumbled without looking up from his essay.
I realized I was staring at him. I shook my head. "I didn’t say anything.“
"You were thinking.“
I’m convinced I wasn’t thinking loud and that we’re not able to do telepathy. "How do you know?“
4)
"Because you’re always thinking.“ He was still not looking up from his essay. "That wouldn’t be so bad if you just would stop thinking shit like that.“
„How do you know what I was thinking?“
"It’s all over your face.“
"You didn’t even look at me.“
Now he did and raised an eyebrow.
I smiled brightly – all over my face. He just laughed and shook his head.
"You so fail at playing it cool.“
I sighed and sat down beside him. "How’s it going?“
"I’m almost done. I guess it’s a good thing that I’m a born genius, isn’t it?“
5)
"Depends on…“, I sighed and bit my lip.
"Want me to go?“ he asked.
"Do you want to go?“
"Not my question.“
"But my answer.“
Now he sighed and took my hand. "No, I do not want to go. But I thought maybe you want to have some alone time. And the only way for you to get that is between the treatments, because there’s absolutely no chance that I will leave you alone right after the radiation again.“
I nodded. "I figured. So, what happened to my towels?“
He leaned forward. "They’ll be back tomorrow.“
Then he kissed me.
TBC
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
on 2010-10-12 07:08 am (UTC)this was good loved this part
"Want me to go?“ he asked.
"Do you want to go?“
"Not my question.“
"But my answer.“
no subject
on 2010-10-12 07:46 am (UTC)Try to post one chapter per day.
In Between chapter 15
on 2010-10-12 07:19 am (UTC)Re: In Between chapter 15
on 2010-10-12 07:47 am (UTC)It's hard hard work to convince him that he hasn't to be perfect to be loved.
But Justin keeps working on it :)
Thanks for your comment.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 07:41 am (UTC)He leaned forward. "They’ll be back tomorrow.“
Someone who didn't know their relationship wouldn't know that those two short sentences said A LOT! Brian not pretending he's fine by acknowledging the towels and Justin letting him know that it's okay, it's just life and those towels on the bathroom floor just represented one of the horrible parts of life they are getting through, and tomorrow they'll start fresh with clean towels and he'll wash them and bring them back as many times as Brian needs him to!
Well, that was certainly way too deep for 2:35 in the morning! I think I made myself cry! :-)
I love the subtext of these drabbles. Each one says so much! (It's a good thing I don't get in the mood to analyze all of them like this or you'd never get rid of me!) :-D
Hugs, Cindy
no subject
on 2010-10-12 07:49 am (UTC)It's a great compliment and it's also very interesting.
Thanks a lot for that great comment.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 09:24 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 09:30 am (UTC)Thanks a lot for your comment.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 09:30 am (UTC)It's amazing to see how Justin is able to know that Brian is thinking and that what he's thinking are just bullshits.
They know each other so well.
Well done hon =)
no subject
on 2010-10-12 09:31 am (UTC)Thanks a lot.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 09:50 am (UTC)They are so in love & so together, even in a fucked up Brian Kinney sorta way:)
Loved the ending,,yay he kissed him xx
Wonderful update, I think he finally gets it, that he's never leaving him again,,Bravo Love jx
no subject
on 2010-10-12 10:36 am (UTC)Thanks for your comment.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 11:11 am (UTC)Not for cancer, not for anything,,later Jx
no subject
on 2010-10-12 11:18 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 11:40 am (UTC)Poor writing on behalf of C/Lip, but we wont get into it:) we will be here all night.
Brian Kinney in my opinion loved Justin way to much, & in the end it was all for nothing. BUT in my world as IF he'd leave him, C/Lip just wanted to screw us over :)
Later J.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 12:11 pm (UTC)So no we won't agree (but most people "hate" Justin for S2, it's nice to read it about S4 and S5).
I also don't think that in the end it was for nothing, who said they broke up? Not even CowLip said that.
I don't think that Brian loved Justin more than Justin loved Brian, but I think Brian needed him way more than vice versa. (but that's about the childhood, it's the same with Michael)
I never disliked Brian ... I could understand him, I knew where he was comming from ... and same goes for Justin, so IMO they were very well written, even though from time to time they both annoyed me *gg*
no subject
on 2010-10-12 12:19 pm (UTC)Justin was always so selfish (well to me he was) he wanted it all & when he finally got it ALL, he up & left him, just like that!
I never wanted them to marry, so C/lip did me a favor, but Brian all alone killed me & thousands more as well, I guess you just had to have faith & believe,,but Justin always left him, & Brian always took him back.
See we will never completely agree, but 308 Justin & 307 (where he smacks Ian in the face with the red roses) can stay lol
Im off to bed,,love your story,,hugs Jx
no subject
on 2010-10-12 12:46 pm (UTC)IMO they're both stubborn and they really suck at compromises, which IMO is the main problem in S5. I wouldn't call any of them selfish. (Melanie is a selfish character for me)
But Brian can be very disrespectful.
I also never wanted them to marry, that would've been way too much! So YEAH for cancelling the wedding, but also YEAH for proposing.
But... the thing is, IMO Justin totally ignored his own wishes and needings to be with Brian, simply because he loved Brian and thought he could handle it, but you can't always ignore what you want and need, it just doesn't work. One day you'll get angry when nothing changes and you start to expect more. So IMO Justin was right to leave when he realized that he was expecting too much.
Sure, it was sad and I felt way more sorry for Brian in S5 than in S2, but way its better than waiting until it escalates again, as it did in S2.
And ... it was about time that Brian let his walls fall.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 09:57 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 10:37 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 10:56 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 11:20 am (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 11:53 am (UTC)Still loving this story, I hope you continue for a while.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 12:13 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 11:56 am (UTC)Thanks a lot for those moments of Brian&Justin's life. It's so wonderfull to have a chance to empathize with their feelings again!
You're doing a really great job!
Thanks a lot!)))
no subject
on 2010-10-12 12:14 pm (UTC)I'm glad you like my little story.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 02:10 pm (UTC)but I have saved it to savour again and again when I need some good Brian and Justin fic
no subject
on 2010-10-12 02:19 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 02:34 pm (UTC)And look its Christmas!!! What a surprise...
Loving this story, and all the range of emotions your putting our boys through... Lord knows it can be a very trying time...
Later Sweetheart ~ Kathleen
no subject
on 2010-10-12 02:58 pm (UTC)Thanks a lot, I love reading that people like my little FF.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 03:08 pm (UTC)"I’m convinced I wasn’t thinking loud and that we’re not able to do telepathy." boy is he wrong about that because if that was the case, justin wouldn't be so on to him.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 06:22 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 03:20 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 06:20 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2010-10-12 04:13 pm (UTC)The talks, just great, very in cannon.
I loved it.
no subject
on 2010-10-12 06:20 pm (UTC)Thanks for your comment.