In Between, Part 15

[soulmatejunkee]

Title: In Between, Part 15/?
Author: soulmatejunkee 
Fandom: Queer as Folk US
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Timeline: What happened between episode 4.09 and 4.10 (POV’s). It starts right after "Eat some fucking chicken soup". 
Word Count: 500 words (drabbles)
Summary: I am writing on it since weeks, so I just thought, maybe I should start posting it
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. It’s all CowLip and Showtime.
A/N: Beta by qafkinnetic   (Thanks a lot!)
Every comment is welcome. Let me know what you think. Thanks!

I just want to thank everyone for the lovely comments on this story!!
I love reading every single one.

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Brian's POV

1)
He didn’t say anything about my condition and the towels on the bathroom floor – which magically disappeared. I wondered where he took them.

I knew he thought I didn’t want to talk about it and he was right. I wouldn’t know what to say, because I didn’t expect it to be as bad as it was, either. But after two days of not talking about it, I got a little nervous. After all, he is still Justin, he loves to discuss everything. And I knew with the next radiation coming up in two days there was stuff to talk about.


2)
He sat at the table and worked on his essay about the baroque vein. We had eaten something and normally we would fuck now, but he didn’t even try to come near me. The doctor said that the radiation wouldn’t have any effect on my sex drive, but the surgery-pain was still there. It had gotten better, but it wasn’t gone.

The other problem was, that I wasn’t even sure I would want to be naked in front of him. Except that I had a perfectly shaped penis right now, it just felt weird to know that he knows. Imperfection.


3)
He kinda ignored me. Not if I asked him something or if I needed something, but otherwise he didn’t come near me. Why did he always have to scare me? Why couldn’t he just tell me that it’s disgusting and that he couldn’t even imagine to ever be with me again? It was obvious.

"Bullshit, Brian“, he mumbled without looking up from his essay.

I realized I was staring at him. I shook my head. "I didn’t say anything.“

"You were thinking.“

I’m convinced I wasn’t thinking loud and that we’re not able to do telepathy. "How do you know?“


4)
"Because you’re always thinking.“ He was still not looking up from his essay. "That wouldn’t be so bad if you just would stop thinking shit like that.“

„How do you know what I was thinking?“

"It’s all over your face.“

"You didn’t even look at me.“

Now he did and raised an eyebrow.

I smiled brightly – all over my face. He just laughed and shook his head.

"You so fail at playing it cool.“

I sighed and sat down beside him. "How’s it going?“

"I’m almost done. I guess it’s a good thing that I’m a born genius, isn’t it?“


5)
"Depends on…“, I sighed and bit my lip.

"Want me to go?“ he asked.

"Do you want to go?“

"Not my question.“

"But my answer.“

Now he sighed and took my hand. "No, I do not want to go. But I thought maybe you want to have some alone time. And the only way for you to get that is between the treatments, because there’s absolutely no chance that I will leave you alone right after the radiation again.“

I nodded. "I figured. So, what happened to my towels?“

He leaned forward. "They’ll be back tomorrow.“

Then he kissed me.



TBC

Comments

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Well, tbh, I would do it for the same reason(s) Justin did twice. I think it's really hard to love someone like Brian Kinney.

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

I'm not a lover of Justin:) for 3 seasons I was, but not for the last 2, especially S5.

Poor writing on behalf of C/Lip, but we wont get into it:) we will be here all night.

Brian Kinney in my opinion loved Justin way to much, & in the end it was all for nothing. BUT in my world as IF he'd leave him, C/Lip just wanted to screw us over :)

Later J.

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

See, I am a Justin's Girl *gg*
So no we won't agree (but most people "hate" Justin for S2, it's nice to read it about S4 and S5).

I also don't think that in the end it was for nothing, who said they broke up? Not even CowLip said that.

I don't think that Brian loved Justin more than Justin loved Brian, but I think Brian needed him way more than vice versa. (but that's about the childhood, it's the same with Michael)

I never disliked Brian ... I could understand him, I knew where he was comming from ... and same goes for Justin, so IMO they were very well written, even though from time to time they both annoyed me *gg*

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Oh I hated Justin for leaving Brian for Ethan:) But I loved S3 so much, as after 308 they were more in love than ever!!

Justin was always so selfish (well to me he was) he wanted it all & when he finally got it ALL, he up & left him, just like that!

I never wanted them to marry, so C/lip did me a favor, but Brian all alone killed me & thousands more as well, I guess you just had to have faith & believe,,but Justin always left him, & Brian always took him back.

See we will never completely agree, but 308 Justin & 307 (where he smacks Ian in the face with the red roses) can stay lol

Im off to bed,,love your story,,hugs Jx

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

It would be boring if we'd all agree *gg* I love a good discussion. Sometime someone says something and I think "O, right, I never thought about that".

IMO they're both stubborn and they really suck at compromises, which IMO is the main problem in S5. I wouldn't call any of them selfish. (Melanie is a selfish character for me)

But Brian can be very disrespectful.

I also never wanted them to marry, that would've been way too much! So YEAH for cancelling the wedding, but also YEAH for proposing.

But... the thing is, IMO Justin totally ignored his own wishes and needings to be with Brian, simply because he loved Brian and thought he could handle it, but you can't always ignore what you want and need, it just doesn't work. One day you'll get angry when nothing changes and you start to expect more. So IMO Justin was right to leave when he realized that he was expecting too much.

Sure, it was sad and I felt way more sorry for Brian in S5 than in S2, but way its better than waiting until it escalates again, as it did in S2.

And ... it was about time that Brian let his walls fall.