A huge thank you to guavejuice and <user site="livejournal.com"

[soulmatejunkee]

You girls have no idea how much your little presents touched me and how welcome they are!
Because life just sucks (right now).

Let's start with the good stuff:

I got another self-made card from my lovely friend V. (guavejuice):


I have to admit I had to look at it for a while before I realized what it shows *LOL*
B/J (I guess) doing hot stuff under the duvet!

It's so adorable sweety. Thank you so much. *hugs*

And then today I got this - totally unexpected - gifts from Pammy (pam81):




Thank you so so so much for this beautiful card and gift. I was so touched when I unpacked it and saw the EKG and read your beautiful lines to it and... just thank you so so much! *hugs you tight*

Because right now I'm just in a depressive mood. As you might have realized, I wasn't posting much lately. Not that I am not online, I am, every day. And I read some stuff and sometimes I leave a message, but unfortunately my head isn't free for B/J stuff lately. Not as it used to be and not as I want it to be.

Because... after loosing 3 (!) teeth in 5 months and still being in pain (for over 7 months so far) and changing the dentist I've been told that maybe I have trifacial neuralgic syndrome. And since that's been said I'm just sitting around crying and being depressed! And this just sucks!

Because it's not all. On the other side I have a sinusitis that needs surgery, because medication didn't work anymore. So there's pain too. And it's like... when there's no pain on the left side, it's on the right side and vice versa.

And so far no doctor could really tell me what it is and what's the problem and what to do. And this whole thing takes away so much quality of life. There's nothing good anymore, nothing to be happy about, to be excited about and this is so annoying. Sitting around and waiting for the pain.

Every little distraction is welcome, so here I want to thank my dear friend bergergrey for the two evenings she spent talking to me.

So this is it, my story to tell... it's depressing isn't it? It depresses me!

Comments

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

awww... my dear LS *hugs*
I'm sorry to hear that you're still in pain and that you're going through such a tough time *sigh*
I'm glad my little card was able to cheer you up a bit. Yup, you got it right. those are our fav boyz engeged in some sweet post lalala'ing moment (or pre lalala'ing... you never know with these two, right? )
Please take care. If you feel like ranting you know where to find me...
*hugs you gently*
V.
p.s
I LOVE pammy's gift ;)

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much V. *hugs*

[mander3-swish.livejournal.com]

omg!!! that totally sucks!!!!
i hope it all gets sorted quick and the pain goes away asap!!!!!
*hugs*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

O, I hope that too.
I want to feel joy and hope and fun again! This is all so... depressive, you know?
Thanks for your lovely words ♥

[pet0511.livejournal.com]

It's really bad. When I hold the surprise of the day in my hand earlier I thought about the fun we had with your evil side and how good you'd been then, always writing and you seemed so content. And I can see how much impact all the pain has on your mood and honestly: I can understand that you're feeling depressed. Nobody expected it being so long-lasting, even though you had so much bad luck right from the beginning of your "tooth story". I feel so sorry for you but this doesn't help any, I know that.
Hugs, my dear, and if we had known before, we would have bought stocks from Ibu, right?
Pet 😍

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

This so sucks!
I look at the Convention pictures and all I want is to feel like I did back then again.
IBU doesn't work anymore... unfortunately.
Right now I'm taking Naproxen, and I have a... öhm, Beissschiene! That's helps, at least for the right side.
But the problem with the nerves is on the left... *sigh*

IT.JUST.SUCKS.

[sunshine-kinney.livejournal.com]

Just dropping by to leave a *hug*

Any pain is bad enough, but facial pain is just horrible :( I hope it gets sorted and you feel better soon x

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thanks a lot Michelle :)

[kinwad.livejournal.com]

Oh, Steff, that really sucks! How awful to have to live with that pain! I hope your doctors can come up with treatments to give you some relief! *hugs*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

I really wish a doctor could at least tell me what's exactly going on there.
This is just... too much.
I am so tired.

[later2nite.livejournal.com]

Hi Steffi, I'm so sorry to hear you're in so much pain. I didn't know any of this until I read your post just now. It's horrible when you feel like everything is depressing, and I can understand why you're feeling that way. I wish there was something I could do to make it better for you.

The cards and gift from V. and Pam are so sweet. Good that they could cheer you up a little.

I'm thinking of you and sending good vibes your way. ♥

Hugs,
Linda

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much Linda ♥ *hug*

[techgirl-on-ij.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. It sounds horrible what you're going through.

*hugs you*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

It's just so depressing that there's no end near...
Thanks for your lovely words.

[pam81.livejournal.com]

My dear Steffi...
First of all, you're so very welcome! I'm glad I was able to surprise you!

But... I'm so, so sorry to hear you're in pain and that you're having a hard time.
I wish I could do something to help you and to bring the smile back on your face.

I know that nothing's going the right way right now, but don't give up, okay?

I'm thinking about you ♥ I hope things are going to get better for you soon.
If you need anything, or just want to talk, I'm here ♥

*hugs tight*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Pammy *hugs*
Thanks you so much for everything.
I try to think positive... sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
It just sucks.
But your little present was such a lovely surprise.

I still love to think about Cologne, we had such a great time there.
I wish we could be there again *sigh*