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Steffi ([personal profile] soulmatejunkee) wrote2010-10-17 10:40 am

In Between, Part 20 (Last Chapter)

Title: In Between, Part 20/20
Author: [livejournal.com profile] soulmatejunkee 
Fandom: Queer as Folk US
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Timeline: What happened between episode 4.09 and 4.10 (POV’s). It starts right after "Eat some fucking chicken soup". 
Word Count: 600 words (drabbles)
Summary: I am writing on it since weeks, so I just thought, maybe I should start posting it
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. It’s all CowLip and Showtime.
A/N: Beta by [livejournal.com profile] qafkinnetic   (Thanks a lot!)
Every comment is welcome. Let me know what you think. Thanks!

I just want to thank everyone for the lovely comments on this story!!
I love reading every single one.


01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10
11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19



Brian's POV

1)
Sometimes something hurts so much that you can’t breathe anymore, it’s like something kills you from the inside. Finding out that your parents aren’t what parents are suppose to be and never will be is a good example for that. Or finding out that you have cancer is also a good example. But all of that got topped by finding out that you’re in love – even though you never wanted to be in love. When it just hits you and it just hurts and you can’t do anything to stop it, no matter if you’re happy or not, it hurts.


2)
Because as I always knew, love hurts. It’s practically an offer for someone else to hurt you. Just like when I waited at the bar at Babylon, looking around for Justin, who was already late and then recognizing him at the backroom door – talking to some guy… making out with some guy.

Hands on the asses, on dicks, and trousers almost off. I just wanted to disappear, to yell at someone to pull out that knife of my lung, so that I could breath again. And then they started kissing – on the mouth.

I turned around to the bar. "Bourbon!“


3)
With barely any food in my stomach I wouldn’t need much bourbon to end up drunk enough to not feel anything anymore. Fuck! He lied to me. He told me he was stuck with Daphne, who got lovesick and would be late. I convinced myself that it was only that lie that made me angry and not the fact that he was making out with someone else, while I was standing at the bar, waiting for him. It was his fucking idea to get out, to get dance. If he wanted to get laid, why didn’t he just tell me?


4)
I grabbed the glass with bourbon the second it was in front of me.

"Yeah, I don’t think so.“

I saw my glass disappearing from my hand, grabbed by some other hand and then I saw my bourbon disappearing in Justin’s mouth. He made a face and shook his head.

"What’s the plan? Getting drunk to puke even more?“

He put his arm around my neck and kissed me. I could taste the bourbon – my bourbon. I tried to sort out my mind.

"Hey.“ He smiled at me.

"Hey“, I was confused.

He raised an eyebrow. "I’m Justin, remember me?“


5)
"Yeah“, I mumbled and turned around. There he was, the blond head besides the backroom-door, busy with kissing the naked chest of the other guy. I turned back to Justin, who looked confused now, too.

"Are you okay?“

Love might be an offer for someone else to hurt you, but it also has – unfortunately – the power to make you happy and every time that happens, you’re sure that you’ve never been happier before.

"You stole my drink.“

"You stole my innocence.“ He shrugged. "Guess we’re even.“

I put my arms around his waist and kissed him again. Best kiss ever.


6)
"Wow“, he moaned into my mouth and sighed. His forehead leaned against mine.

"So, how’s Daphne?“

He giggled. "Honey cake works better.“

I laughed and kissed him again and he leaned into me and all I could think was, sometimes you just have to stop thinking about bullshit - as he called it. Maybe it was time for me to start trusting, that he was with me, because he wanted to, because he just loved me.

"You wanna dance?“ he mumbled into my mouth.

"No, I wanna fuck you.“ I paid the bourbon and took his hand. "Let’s go home.“


The End




Note: We all know how Episode 4.10 started, here I leaded into it.
Thanks for reading, thanks for every little comment, loved to read it.
This was my first multi-chapter fic for QAF and I really really appreciated all the compliments.
Thank you so much! *hugs*

[identity profile] aaa-mazing.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 09:57 am (UTC)(link)
My heart is broken. So deep, so painful, so promising. So much hope for future.
Thanks, hon, for wonderful weeks with the fic.
Love and kisses.

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:04 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you for all your lovely comments during the last 3 weeks.
I'm glad you like my little story.

[identity profile] guavejuice.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:10 am (UTC)(link)
absolutly briliiant ending to a beautiful fic!! I wouldn't have it any other way. I actually freaked out a bit when Brian looked at that blonde guy... but than he realy learnt to trust *sigh*
well done! I can't wait for more!

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:21 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot Vered :)
Loved reading each of your lovely comments.
I'm glad you like it.

[identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:21 am (UTC)(link)
There is too much awesomeness in Brian talking about love for me to quote it all. So I'll just quote this...

"You stole my drink.“

"You stole my innocence.“ He shrugged. "Guess we’re even.“


\O/! lol! Love that!

Great job with the whole thing :)

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:27 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot :)

[identity profile] sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:23 am (UTC)(link)
Just the most perfect ending, to the most amazing story.

I loved it, from Brian's POV about falling in love, to Justin arriving & kissing him full on the mouth:)

Made me feel all warm & fuzzy, shit he really loves him, & I'm so glad that he finally feels worthy & trusts Justins love.

Bravo, you made it all turn out right in the end,,you need to write a sequel *winks*

Later babe,,Noe Im off to bed,,Jx

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
A sequel to a gapfiller?! *huh*
Thanks a lot for all your lovely comments and your support.
Always loved loved loved to read your comments on this.

[identity profile] sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com 2010-10-21 11:06 am (UTC)(link)
I love sequels to every fic I read *smiles* as I never want them to end, just like this one!!!

Just loving your Bj fics babe,,all my love Jx

[identity profile] manueladb.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
At the beginning I was wondering what the hell was going on LOL

I loved this final part as much as I loved the entire story. You did a great job with it!

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 11:31 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot Manu :)

[identity profile] ergenie.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 10:57 am (UTC)(link)
This has been a beautiful fic!!!.... So much emotions and feelings..... thank you for this!!!.....

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 11:32 am (UTC)(link)
Glad you liked it.
Thanks.

[identity profile] duffy-60.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 11:55 am (UTC)(link)
What a fun ride this was, sweetie. You did a fabulous job, and having an update every single day was such a treat. I so looked forward logging on in the morning because I knew I was going to read something new in this 'verse. Job well done!!

later,
Daph

[identity profile] perdita1000.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 12:28 pm (UTC)(link)
perfect ending, always leave them wanting more, thanks for the story

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot :)

[identity profile] lorie-s.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 12:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Beautiful story. Thank you.

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
You're welcome.
Glad you liked it.

[identity profile] rainbow1907.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 01:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I really wish you could have filled this gap some more but there was no more space left. So here comes a big sigh from me because I'm sad that this wonderful story is over. But I'm also deeply content because your story was perfect and I got to spend some lovely weeks reading it ♥. This was one of my favorites and you get a big fat thank you for it!!! Please write more soon :P

Warmest hugs from Rena ♥♥♥

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess that's the problem with gapfillers, there's just a space to fill. Thanks for your lovely comments.

[identity profile] ladynomad915.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I really enjoyed this story all the way through. It was terrific. You did a excellent job. HUGS

lol I think Brian needs to get glasses.

loved this part.
"You stole my drink.“

"You stole my innocence.“ He shrugged. "Guess we’re even.“

What is your next story?

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
No plans yet, but I think sooner or later there will be something new ;)
Thanks a lot.
Glad you liked it.

[identity profile] galehot.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
The last chapter?? No, please...:( you are going to break my hart!!!

This is the perfercto end, so thank you for share with us.

Kisses

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 03:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I thank you for reading!! :)

[identity profile] sjmpets.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
that's our brian, jumping to conclusions again. must have been that look alike hustler lol.

wonderful chapter.

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot :)

[identity profile] rulisteningbj.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 05:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I hate that this is over. You did a fabulous job with a tough subject. Now you know we will come to expect more muti-chapter fics. Great writing. Thank you!

Dee Dee

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for your comment :)
I'm glad you liked it.

[identity profile] nivahl.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Best Fanfic EVER!!!! You have made me cry and laugh and think ... thank you so much!!!!
Keep on writing!

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-17 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much.

[identity profile] pam81.livejournal.com 2010-10-18 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
This was a wonderful ending! ♥

"You stole my drink.“
"You stole my innocence.“

Lol! That was really funny.

And I absolutely love this
"Maybe it was time for me to start trusting, that he was with me, because he wanted to, because he just loved me"
Yes Brian. Delete the "maybe" and start trusting your partner. During this journey, you've had the chance to see, to 'feel' how much he loves you.

Thank you so much for this story. I've loved every single update. You made an amazing job. *hugs*

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-18 09:10 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :)

[identity profile] xyw8221.livejournal.com 2010-10-18 11:58 am (UTC)(link)
I love this whole story.
It fullfil the big gap in my heart of the Brian's cancer.

hug

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-18 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot :)

[identity profile] spike7451.livejournal.com 2010-10-18 12:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Great ending to your wonderful story.

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-18 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot. And thank you for your lovely comments.

[identity profile] in-a-blue-funk.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
great story. thank you for posting

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading :)

[identity profile] saroco61.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I just read the whole story. It was wonderful, hard some times, but with the best ending. Great work.

Yoli

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-19 06:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot :)

[identity profile] pet0511.livejournal.com 2010-10-25 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)
So glad I finally decided to read your cancer fic. Normally I don't like them and so I don't read them but you wrote so many great fics in the last weeks so I just gave it a try...and couldn't stop til the end. How come that your fics always leave me without words?You are making me sit whereever I am while reading like dumb and stunned, all the way fighting with the tears.You are really really good! Thanks so much, I think I just have to buy a waterproof mascara...Pet

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-10-26 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
Awww that was a lovely comment, thank you sooo much! I'm happy to read that you like my fics, it's always a great inspiration to write more :)

Thank you soo much! *hugs*

[identity profile] paoloqaf.livejournal.com 2010-11-12 07:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi! I'm Italian and I appreciated your ff... thank you so much! I love Brian and Justin and QaF... I missed them and I love reading about their special lovestory... kisses and love
Paolo

[identity profile] soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com 2010-11-12 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks a lot :)