In Between, Part 18

[soulmatejunkee]

Title: In Between, Part 18/20
Author: soulmatejunkee 
Fandom: Queer as Folk US
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Timeline: What happened between episode 4.09 and 4.10 (POV’s). It starts right after "Eat some fucking chicken soup". 
Word Count: 400 words (drabbles)
Summary: I am writing on it since weeks, so I just thought, maybe I should start posting it
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. It’s all CowLip and Showtime.
A/N: Beta by qafkinnetic   (Thanks a lot!)
Every comment is welcome. Let me know what you think. Thanks!

I just want to thank everyone for the lovely comments on this story!!
I love reading every single one.

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Brian's POV

1)
I was so fucking pissed about this, about everything. Since the doctor told me that I have cancer all I could think about was my father, dying of this shit, dying of cancer. I knew I wouldn’t die, at least not because of this, not now, but it reminded me what he was telling me when I told him that I was gay, that I was the one who should die. Fuck Jack! And now I had to be thankful for winning a stupid bet and got blown by a doctor, who warned me about my sick ball. This sucks!


2)
And when it wasn’t Jack that came to my mind, it was my mother, and that always lead me to Debbie, who still wouldn’t talk me. Well, I hadn’t seen her in a while, since I barely left my loft and could barely eat anything other than low carbs. But I knew that if she knew about my cancer she would be here, at least once a day and she would make me eat even more chicken soup and she would tell me that everything would be good again. And I would believe her, because a mother never lies, right?


3)
Justin was so patient, he was just there, he didn’t say anything, he didn’t ask for anything, he just took what I gave him and most of time it had been blowjobs. Not that I didn’t like to blow him, I always did, but fucking him was the better option. And he knew the pain was gone and so did I, but something didn’t work right. It was in my head, not in my dick, I'd already figured that out. I started to get angry about it.

"You can go out, you know?“

He nodded while drawing me. "I know.“


4)
"You don’t have to sit here all the time holding my hand. Go get some guy and…“

"Fuck him for you?“

He finished my sentence, I hated that. "Not for me, for you.“

He was still drawing. "If I need a fuck, I'll go out for it, I promise. Okay?“

Then he looked up, with this I have a great idea look. "How about going out? Tomorrow? We could go to Babylon, dancing.“

"Dancing?“ I probably sounded a little to bored.

"If you don’t want to, fine.“ He shrugged. "I thought you might wanna go out.“

I did. "I do.“



TBC

Comments

[guavejuice.livejournal.com]

this is really briliant chapter. so well written. so true to what BJ really were.
I love how Brian thinks of Debbi,and his little convo with Justin *sighs*

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thanks honey *hugs*

[trintiff.livejournal.com]

"If I need a fuck, I'll go out for it, I promise. Okay?“

In other words, "I only want you, Brian; and I'll wait." But Brian would have hit the roof if Justin had said that, so he had to say it in "Brian-speak" :-)

I LOVE this!

Hugs, Cindy

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Yeah, if you want to stay with Brian, it's better to speak in his language *gg*

Thanks for your comment.

[rainbow1907.livejournal.com]

Communication between those two works just fine at the moment. I love the easiness Brian and Justin share right now. As it is often the case with them, their "relationship" runs smoothly when they're alone... and as soon as others intrude, like the gang or Debbie or potential tricks, it starts to get wonky. Wonderful update, dankeschön!

Hugs, Rena ♥

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Bitte schön und... Danke schön :)

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Yeah I loved this chapter as well.

Could see it all, your B&J are so IC,,its scary:)

yay he's going out, maybe that will cheer the little darling up *smiles*

Loved Justin here,,wonderful update,,love Jx

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thanks a lot :)

[manueladb.livejournal.com]

So typical of Brian to push Justin to go out and have sex with someone else, since he can't give that to him right now. But Justin always finds the right words.
Thanks for the new part :)

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thanks Manu :)

[pam81.livejournal.com]

Love Brian's thoughts about the situation.

And I love especially Justin's answer "If I need a fuck, I'll go out for it, I promise. Okay?"
Smart boy. He said the right thing.

Wonderful update!

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thanks a lot!

[galehot.livejournal.com]

I like what he think about his father and Debb, he's so right! They are going to go out!! I'm really excited!!

Really great!!

Thanks

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[sjmpets.livejournal.com]

these are absolutely wonderful.

the way his mind works. the things he has had to put up with.

justin is not him. when will he learn?

[soulmatejunkee.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much :)