I am reading this chapter in total and very happy shock that Brian came home. His home is with Justin, wherever that is. So happy that he cried, held on, did not push away, shared, gave, and received. My heart was all happy and content (and I love angst) but honestly I loved this more. Because I continue to see Brian grow. Plus your insight into his father and concern of becoming him feels so real, so right. It makes so much sense that loving must is scary as hell for Brian.

Then he woke up (and in a kind of bad way). He woke up knowing exactly what he needs. Knowing that what is needs is right there. However, he is not yet ready to completely accept it. But you mentioned baby steps.

I hope he realizes that it is Justin who allows him to breathe completely and love. And it is the same for Justin.

Loved it and I can handle baby steps.

Hugs, Kate