I smell a breaking point, a turn, a change, hopefully in a good direction. Daphne was right to have an honest word with Justin. I really understand his need for independence, he learned the hard way that being at mercy of others can hurt so much. And he is young and he tries and he is so "straight" and honest, but at a loss of the realism of this world. I love him for that. But what he doesn't have to do is playing the lonely Batman who goes against the world just by himself. And talking to Daphne, open up to her, it wouldn't have any harm. But maybe he got it. And I understand his wish for independence to Brian too. But not to use his experience for the ad stuff, that wasn't so smart. But who is smart in his place and at his age? Sometimes we have to make faults, at least there are our own. And that he was since his father threw him out, away. When he stood at the hospital bed I got angry. I think it was the best for Justin to meet and beat his own demons, to get clear with his feelings for his father. For Justin Craig will ever be his father, I'm sure, and if he would be at a need I think Justin would be there to help. But emotionally he got a big step further when he saw his father and said those things to him, it helped him to clear up not just with the past but also with the present, so I think. No, I don't mean that Justin will come back to Pittsburgh so soon but maybe I'm wrong, I'll see, maybe you'll surprise me. I just meant that Justin arrived in the present someway. The talk with Daphne, his speech to his father, his own anger about his day long bad mood, all of that helped him to see more clear about the reality and things which are good for him and which are bad. So he went to Brian. And oh, I know, Brian is like 34/5 but in a situation like this, trying to handle a silent and crouchy Justin and then seing him surprisingly in the office, I have pity in my whole body for him. So Brian-like. So insecure what to do, say or not. He, the big planner for the whole universe, had lost control a long time ago. Sometimes he gets some back but in the last time it's as if he were losing more and more ground. He won't go, he won't leave, he will try his best but he is emotionally overwhelmed, swamped. I'm feeling sorry for him even if he comes out of your words now and hits me... I really hope for his inner self that he learns to manage some, esp Justin and their relationship, better and more selfish even when this wouldn't be so typical for him. But maybe he realizes too that this is like a arrival in the present, the struggling with the past should end at least in some ways just to protect himself. The talks in this chap were good and needed. However the results are going to be, without the talks Justin would have stayed in a place he won't like afterwards. Thanks, my dear soulmate to make me see a turn where maybe wasn't intended...I loved the fast update so I could stay in touch with the last but one chap with no work. For me we needed these talks, I mean BJ needed them as well even if he never admit this. The story goes on and on, and I'll wait and see what will happen. Thanks so mega much and sweet dreams!!! Pet
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on 2010-12-27 11:22 pm (UTC)Daphne was right to have an honest word with Justin. I really understand his need for independence, he learned the hard way that being at mercy of others can hurt so much. And he is young and he tries and he is so "straight" and honest, but at a loss of the realism of this world. I love him for that. But what he doesn't have to do is playing the lonely Batman who goes against the world just by himself. And talking to Daphne, open up to her, it wouldn't have any harm. But maybe he got it.
And I understand his wish for independence to Brian too. But not to use his experience for the ad stuff, that wasn't so smart. But who is smart in his place and at his age? Sometimes we have to make faults, at least there are our own.
And that he was since his father threw him out, away. When he stood at the hospital bed I got angry. I think it was the best for Justin to meet and beat his own demons, to get clear with his feelings for his father. For Justin Craig will ever be his father, I'm sure, and if he would be at a need I think Justin would be there to help. But emotionally he got a big step further when he saw his father and said those things to him, it helped him to clear up not just with the past but also with the present, so I think.
No, I don't mean that Justin will come back to Pittsburgh so soon but maybe I'm wrong, I'll see, maybe you'll surprise me. I just meant that Justin arrived in the present someway. The talk with Daphne, his speech to his father, his own anger about his day long bad mood, all of that helped him to see more clear about the reality and things which are good for him and which are bad. So he went to Brian.
And oh, I know, Brian is like 34/5 but in a situation like this, trying to handle a silent and crouchy Justin and then seing him surprisingly in the office, I have pity in my whole body for him. So Brian-like. So insecure what to do, say or not. He, the big planner for the whole universe, had lost control a long time ago. Sometimes he gets some back but in the last time it's as if he were losing more and more ground. He won't go, he won't leave, he will try his best but he is emotionally overwhelmed, swamped. I'm feeling sorry for him even if he comes out of your words now and hits me... I really hope for his inner self that he learns to manage some, esp Justin and their relationship, better and more selfish even when this wouldn't be so typical for him. But maybe he realizes too that this is like a arrival in the present, the struggling with the past should end at least in some ways just to protect himself.
The talks in this chap were good and needed. However the results are going to be, without the talks Justin would have stayed in a place he won't like afterwards.
Thanks, my dear soulmate to make me see a turn where maybe wasn't intended...I loved the fast update so I could stay in touch with the last but one chap with no work. For me we needed these talks, I mean BJ needed them as well even if he never admit this. The story goes on and on, and I'll wait and see what will happen. Thanks so mega much and sweet dreams!!! Pet